A bridge to happiness.

I have thought about this post for nearly three days, and always come up empty in relating the ideas of thermodynamics and life. So I looked to Fluid dynamics only to find the same thing. So they must be saved for another day.

Today, I shall keep to being a minimalist- something I desperately need work on. I have a tendency to overcomplicate issues, followed by the overwhelming feeling of not having a vocabulary deep enough, or wide enough, to complement the sentiments needing to be conveyed. So I wish to keep it simple, to build the bridge one step a time across the river of my lacking.

I spent most of the day in an anxious fervor. I was excited that I had a variety of work items to keep me just busy enough to not feel stressed, and to not notice the time pass. So when the maintenance man came to repair the ballasts of the light fixture above my cubicle, it was already time to kindly give notice of my impending departure.

I was surprised to hear a slight chord of envy as I relinquished the words I had stored in my chest all day, "I will be leaving at the end of the month." I have chosen May 27 for no other reason than to say it appeared as the proper day as I glared at my calendar. It allows me enough time to train others on my secondary responsibilities, or allows others the time to find replacements for my duties. I took the Tuesday before as a vacation day, and that Monday is memorial day.

I am excited to have impending change in my life, and it comes in at just under 3 years- funny how the phases of my life seem to work according to this schedule; my only hope is that I am not a slave to it.

Last night was the beginning of organizing my assorted collection of things I'm unattached to. I am not attached to many of my posessions- I'm happy to have never placed happiness into the bucket containing material posession. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy having nice things (though I have none), but I much prefer to think and learn- perhaps now I may be equipped enough to do.

Go out into the world, do good, and be happy. yes, that would be nice.